Sex and Cigarettes

      I am a cigarette smoker (I have smoked more than my fair share of weed in my life but can't now because I get drug tested for my pain meds). I have smoked over half my life and I need to quit badly simply because we can't afford it. But the main times I want a smoke bad is after meals and sex.Tonight, me and hubby decided we were gonna have sex, and so loaded me with pain meds, Valium and my muscle relaxer. It's truly amazing my tolerance for these kinds of medications. We were shortly interrupted by my best friend who ran over here real quick to give me a cigarette, which I told him was just in time, and then it dawned on him why, and we both laughed and I thanked him, shut the door and ran back to hubby to finish our lil somethin somethin. I feel bad for my hubby because now with my spinal condition everything physical requires pain meds, Valium and muscle relaxants. I am with a relatively new pain doctor and we are still regulating meds. But, as for me and hubby, well, we both manage to still satisfy each other, even after 20 years. I love him more now than when I married him and I will love him more tomorrow.
     Since my spine has gotten worse, hubby has had to take over cooking, washing dishes, housework, help with laundry and all that kind of stuff. He escorts me from the bathroom because that is where I fall the most and we don't know why. It scares him when I fall. Some people laugh because its a nervous response other yell. Hubby is a yeller and it nearly gives him an anxiety attack every time I fall. I have told him that this is part of my life now and we have to accept that and adapt to it, but he disagrees. He is a stubborn man, but I still love him.